Haven in the green room (Part 6-A)

I lay alone in my bed... uncertain of anything anymore...

Khalifa has been calling me all day; I didn’t answer any of his calls or texts.

The driver is taking me back to Dubai tomorrow... That i know for sure. khaloh has been knocking on me all day and all i’ve been telling her that i was asleep because of a tummy ache.

yeah, blame it on the monthly period. best excuse.

She’ll be heart broken when she doesn’t find me tomorrow morning...

Tears fell from my eyes... why is this happening... why did this blow in my face...

..... “Meera?.......” a hand touched my cheek; wiping the tears off.

3azooz was bent down infront of me...

Meera: kaif d5alt?!

3azooz: dreesheh remember?

Meera: should've locked it. go away. please. i dont have the energy to fight with you anymo-

“shhhhhh” he lay a finger on my lips...

3azooz: no more fighting, i promise.

Meera: why r u here then

3azooz: to do this,

he got on my bed and hugged me, “im sorry mayarii” kissed my forehead, “im sorry i hurt you like that”

*sniffs *

3azooz: lat5ayseeny mkha6 please

Meera: shut up ass.

3azooz: ok. inshalla.

i just noticed he’s just wearing his shorts and faneelh; his upper body was hard against mine. his smell was.... amazing...

3azooz: ta3ali *whispers*

enseda7 3adali & he pulled me in his arms. we were facing each other; he had an arm around me, the other caressing my cheek.

Meera: you’re not suppose to be here you know...

3azooz: i know.. but i want to...

Meera: why...

3azooz: .... * 7a6 his forehead on mine* it doesnt matter, ok? im here now.

Meera: ok...

I let myself melt in his arms; my head was near his chest.

I wasn’t sure if this was 3azooz, my friend/brother... or a new kind of 3azooz...

3azooz: t7beenh?

Meera: ma3arf..

3azooz: would you get hurt if he wasn’t part of your life anymore?

Meera: ma3arf....

“i dont think so...”

“why are you asking?”

3azooz: l2ani mabah in your life..

Meera: even if i wanted to end it, i dont have a reason to give him...

3azooz: dont worry about that.. ill handle it.

Meera: dont

3azooz: i will..

Meera: plz dont.

3azooz: listen to me, * he lifted my face to look at him again* enti meera. w ana mar’6a anyone talks to you. w anyways ur mine.

Meera: * giggles* no im not

3azooz: embala you are! *smirk*

Meera: since when?!

3azooz: since now.

He leaned down and placed his lips on mine...

Haven in the green room (Part 5)

3azooz: a sister galat! please lo knti mthl ekhti chan ga9eit rasch w n7art hatha khleefh eli etramseenh!

Meera: what?!!!

7areb: shu?!

Meera: what the hell is your problem!

7areb * yelling *: mno khleefh ba3ad?!!

3azooz: es2alha! mno khleefh?!

Meera: khara 3alaik ya 3azooz!!!!!

i stormed to my room... i just want to get away from them.. how dare he! how did he know a9lan!!

I could hear 7areb's voice behind me, "meera la7'6ah"

I just ran, i ran to my room and locked the door behind me.

7areb: meerah fchi el bab, lets talk.

Meera: go away 7areb!

7areb: meera ma7ad bigoolch shay, ma7ad bi7asbch.. bs fchi el bab, khaleeni aramsch

Meera: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! I HATE YOU ALL! I HATE BEING HERE!!! I WANT TO GO BACK HOME!!!!

7areb: this is your home now

Meera: just go...

7areb: 3ala ra7atch... bs meera... im not judging.. bs kalmeeny khalna ntfaham.

Meera: go..

I heard his foot steps fade away...

I closed my eyes and tears fell down my cheek...

How could he humiliate me like that... how could he...

He was the only person i trusted... the only person i trusted to have my back no matter what.

"do you really wanna leave?"

Meera: what are you doing here?!

3azooz: does it matter?!

he took a step closer.

Meera: how the hell did you get in!

3azooz: like every night, you don't lock your window.

Meera: how dare you?! how dare you spy on me?!! how dare you embarrass me like that?! 6ool 3mrii aster 3alaik no matter what you tell me w no matter what the girls tell me about you! ma chd f'6a7tk jdam my parents or e5wank or anyone for that matters!!!! how dare you talk about me that w jdam 7areb?!!!

3azooz: laish you care what 7areb thinks?!

Meera: i hate you. i hate you! i want to go back home! god i hate you so much right now 3azooz!!! ejlb wayhk w e6la3 min my room!

3azooz: hadi a39abch. you don't hate me, you're just pissed off.

Meera: get out.

3azooz: Mayyarii, etroo'3eeny?

Meera: e6la3 3azooz. maba achoofk.

3azooz: meerh I'm sorry..

i walked to the window and opened the curtain, "please go."

i could see the hurt in his eyes; but the way he hurt me was way more.

3azooz: ok..

and he was gone...

haven in the green room (Part 4)

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Meera: * speechless*

7areb started laughing, *pinching my cheek* "you used to be chubby! yalla lets go down for breakfast" and he pulled me down the stairs.

awk...waaaaarrrddd...........................................

in my head i dropped dead a million times and came back to life.

7areb: sam7eeni makan qa9di azay'3ch che

he was still holding my hand while walking towards the dining room

Meera: laish che gtli 3an 3azooz? mafy shay beinna. 3azooz mthl e5ooyh

He kept on walking. we reached the dining room he let go of my hand and walked towards the food.

Meera: 7areb?!

He grabbed a plate and put some food on it. he was very quiet, as if looking for the right words to say. I put some cereal and sat opposite of him.

7areb: we never had a sister. and we always considered you ours; i did at least, i don't know about the rest. so don't blame me for being protective of you. we were never close to our other cousins. you were always different.

Meera: yeah bs laish che etgool 3an 3azooz. he's your brother no matter what-

7areb: and reality remains too maystahalch. 3azooz e5ooyh gala 3eini w rasii, but he's also a player. elbnt matkaml 3ndh youmein, efrha mthl mayor el akl. and leaving akhlaqah aside, he's also fashl.

Meera: 7aram latgool che. he's always been honest with me w egooli 3an swalf elbanat eli ekalmhom.

7areb: enti khala9ti drasatch?

Meera: haih?

7areb: w btbdein your masters soon inshalla, 9a7?

Meera: haih! bs shu e59a?!!!

7areb: 3azooz makamal his bachelors. he changed to 5 different universities in the past 4 years. the guy has no serious future. ytwaqa3 any bysht'3l 3nd eboyh and he'll get paid bdon work 7ata.

Meera: may59a! w ba3dein eshay raj3lh

7areb: do you honestly want a guy who had his own RR by the age of 19, and didn't even have to work for it?

Meera: who said i want 3azooz! he's like a brother!

7areb: good. cuz ana mabar'6aha lch.

Meera: where is this coming from?!!!

7areb: you came out of his room meera, when my mother wasn't even in the house. you were very quiet as if you were sneaking around. ana ma ba'6lmch, enti 3a6eiteeny asbabch w mb min 7aggi atdakhal. bs tarani akhaf 3alaich.

Meera: OMG!!! 7areb WALLLLA mafy shay beiny w bein 3azooz!!! walla el3a'6eem!!!! he's like my brother i swear!!

he looked at me with suspicious eyes

7areb: are you sure mafy shay beinch w beinh?

Meera: YES!!!! WALLLA!!!

7areb: you have no feelings for him?! at all?!

Meera: NO! at ALL!!

"waw.. thanks, you could've at least said a little." 3azooz walked in and headed straight for the bread basket.

Meera: 3azoooz...

i could see hurt in his eyes..

3azooz: hey its ok, i get it. and why would i want u to have feelings for me a9lan, a33 min zeench 3ad

7areb: 3azooz 3eib

Meera: no its ok. I'm like a sister to him thats why ekalmni che, min youmah che

you just had to be harsh 3azooz..

3azooz: a sister galat! please lo knti mthl ekhti chan ga9eit rasch w n7art hatha khleefh eli etramseenh!

Meera: what?!!!

haven in the green room (Part 3)

* Received text*

K: good morning

Meera: hey

K: why are you up so early?

Meera: couldn’t sleep after fajer

K: aha, well im at work, ill ttyl. But do you want to go out later? For coffee maybe?

Meera: I’m sorry but I cant. I live at my aunts house and I she has 4 very social sons. A bit difficult.

K: so what? People know THEM, not YOU

Meera: ya but still, I don’t want to be put in an awkward situation

K: why don’t you just say you don’t wanna go out with me. Whatever I have to go

Meera: ya I don’t want to see you et9adg

K: bye meera

Meera: bye

Ass. PMS-ing much?!!

I found khalo in her Abaya sitting in the living room, “9ba7 elkheir khaloh”.

Khalo: halla umii, shu a9ba7tii?

Meera: 7mdella, 3azooz 6la3?

Khalo: la 7abeebty ba3adh ragd. Rad elbeit mt2akhr. gfalt 3anh kl el beeban madri min wein ydkhal

Meera: btlgein 3ndh mfta7 spare.

Khalo: madreebh, esaweeha el 7mar. yalla 7abeebty ana atrakha9 elyum bntyama3 3nd Um Sul6an yaratyh, etrayegai

Meera: inshalla….

I waited for her to leave the house…

* click * the door shut. I tiptoed upstairs to 3azooz’s room.

He once told me his room is the last one on the right corridor, and he also told me he keeps his spare key under the flower pot by his door. Im such a smarty pants! Khalni awa3eeh 3shan e6al3ni

Meera: 3azooz * whispers*

…. No reply…

I walked to his bed and found him sound asleep…

I sat next to him, and touched his hair… its so soft… yal gay 3azooz t3tni bsha3rk XD

Meera: 3azooz…

3azooz: mmm…

Meera: goom nsh.

3azooz: mmmm

Meera: 3azooz gom nsh malanh yalseh roo7iii

He suddenly grabbed the hand that was on his hair and pulled me closer!

I fell flat on his chest. His arms were around me, crushing me to him

Meera: 3azooz let go!

He started mumbling: 5aleeni argd.

Meera: ok bs hdni.

He suddenly flipped me to his side and held me tenderly.

If I can only slip out of his arms slowwlyyy..

He moved… closer… shit shit shit this is very close.

3azooz… move plz!!!

---- 5 minutes later ----

Phew! That was close! I got out of his room without him noticing!

“Meera?”

SHIT!

“shutsaween hni?”

Meera: aaa… halla 7areb, yeit a6al3 etha 3azooz wa3i. 6la3 ragd.

7areb has a very surprised look on his face, if not shocked, “dasheiti dakhl?”

Meera: aaaaaaaaaaaa….. yes?! Maybe? I think? Madri. Huh? Laish?!

7areb chuckled, “balach ertbakti?”

Meera: walla masaweit shay ‘3ala6! 3azooz kan gayleli wein ba7a9l mfta7 ‘3rfateh w knt malanh abah ensh

7areb: umaya wein?

Meera: 6l3at, sarat beit rbee3at-ha.

7areb: ahaa, tbeini awa3ii 3azooz? Wla btnzleen wyayh?

Wyah? As in walk side by side with this piece of hotness?! Uff meero snap out of it he just caught you leaving his brothers room! Sooo not good for your reputation!

Meera: la ma3alaih banzl..

I walked towards the stairs..

7areb: Meera…

Meera: halla 7areb…

7areb: I know you might not remember this… but we were once very close.

Weird. wall? but why is he telling me this now.

Meera: yeah.. I don’t… sorry?! * blushing*

7areb: 3ady, yals agoolch hashay l2ani etha ban9a7ch fe shay, tarach enti bnt 5alatyh w et-hmeeny

He came closer and closed the gap between us

Meera: ummm.. okay??...

He touched my cheek with his thumb

7areb: tara 3azooz maystahalch.

What the hell?